What has been my life's greatest TRAGEDY??? (It's probably NOT what you THINK!)

 

               As I write, I’m realizing in my life, the real tragedy wasn’t losing my dad or even my mom being handicapped, it was that I let the devil steal my joy for so long.  He robbed me of so much goodness and peace and joy I could have had! He lied to me.  He told me I was a victim of circumstance, and that anyone in my shoes would be bitter and resentful at life. So I did think I was a victim of circumstance, and I was bitter and resentful at life, and I was bothered with demons, and I was lonely… sheesh this has been the great tragedy all along!  Not that I’ve been dealt crappy circumstances, but that I missed the joy through them. Realizing that alone gives me a grievous spirit when I reflect on the darker times, which unfortunately the darker times overshadow the joyous seasons in my life if I’m honest. If I’d just confessed my sin maybe someone would have slapped me silly and prayed for me and I would not been so… bitter. Unhappy. Miserable. Lonely. 

               Here’s where I’m unsure how or why I had this epiphany, on New Years Day of 2009, but I do remember this, that God opened my eyes to the ugliness of my bitterness and sin and I repented and determined in my heart that I would be joyful that year instead, even if I was paying rent to live at home and take care of my mom. I would choose joy.

               There’s a few months after that, January and February, that I don’t remember one way or the other about, so I guess I wasn’t bitter at least… but something happened in March that set off a chain of events in my life that disrupted everything. 

               My friend Kathryn from the Dale House Project came from CO to visit me!

               I love Kathryn.  I haven’t kept up well with her and Andy since that year, between my life collapsing and her having a baby and starting a family, things got lost in the shuffle.

               But I very distinctly remember her visiting me in early March! 

               Technically she was in for another friend of her’s from college’s wedding… it just so happened that it was here in Winston-Salem so she got to visit me at the same time! 

               Okay, Kathryn is smarter than me by like a bajillion times I’m sure. She went to Davidson, which, not as many people have heard of because it’s so small but if you live in NC you know it’s Ivy League and only really really smart people go there. And Kathryn just seems to plan her life out like, whatever she decides to do she does.  I don’t know, she’s just really smart and could do whatever she wanted to do.

               But we had a conversation that left my head scratching  when she left… I didn’t get it, I couldn’t understand… we’d disagreed about population control!

               For me, I’d always been taught that the one child policy in China was a terrible evil… I guess for her she’d been taught it was sad but necessary.  That’s sort of what I gathered from her, that population control is kind of a necessary thing, unpleasant to talk about but you know, the planet is dying and we can’t handle more people kind of thing… and I just did not get it… how could she, my sister in Christ, justify the horrors of the CCP?  It didn’t make sense to me.

               So I began an online mission, to try to prove how evil population control actually is.

Population control has a much darker history, forged in Eugenics and the Holocaust. It may be glossed over as compassionate today, but it was rooted in the quest to create a superior human race.

I had to have the last word in this argument, that population control is really evil dressed up in a compassionate package.

The person who came up with the concept of population control was Rev. Thomas Malthus. He thought there would be standing room only by the year 1890. It’s been over a hundred years since his prediction, and there’s still plenty of room on the planet. His ideas though were picked up by the British elite, who did not like the lower classes and feared they would grow to numerous and seize power from them. (Sounds like Pharaoh ordering the Hebrew boys to be killed, huh?)

 

Another pioneer in the concept of population control was Margaret Sanger. Sanger is often praised as a champion of women’s rights, founding the organization today that’s known as Planned Parenthood. However, Sanger did not believe in philanthropy or helping the poor. She despised them for continuing to propogate less than desiriable races. Her ideas opposed the Christian ideals of the dignity and worth of humans from all races and socio-economic backgrounds. Sanger believed in eugenics, the perfection of the human race. In fact, Sanger’s practices were what Germany began to copy during WW2, when they were on the quest to create the perfect race, to just kill the undesirables. Sanger admired what Hitler was doing in Germany. I think we can all agree that the Holocaust was from the pit of hell. How many millions of Jews, Christians, Gypsies, and other undesirable people were killed. Not just 6 million Jews were killed, but 7-12 million non-Jews were exterminated as well. It was demonic, really. Anyhow, the idea of eugenics is now known today as population control.  Different name, but still a dark concept masquerading as a benefit for society.

 

               My dear Lord talk about a rabbit hole to fall into.

               I don’t remember the first article what it was about, but the second article I stumbled into, the second website I visited, was Dr. Stan Monteith’s site, (that is now wiped clean, I wish I’d downloaded and kept more of it…) but he had a really interesting article on population control and the AIDS agenda in Africa… and his article was really disturbing. Could it have been that scientists knew about AIDS prevention for a long time and yet let it spread in Africa on purpose?

               I started listening to his podcast… is that the first time I’d ever heard of a podcast?  But it was fascinating, but scary and disturbing at the same time… Radio Liberty, “Bringing you the Story behind the Story, the News behind the News. Hoping to convince you that reality is usually scoffed at and illusion is usually kind, but in the battle for the survival of Western civilization it will be reality and not illusion or delusion that will determine what the future will bring.”

               How to make a long story short… well… modern politics is just a show, the left and right have been working towards a New World Order for years just one party gets there a little faster, but it’s all an illusion of choice when there’s only one direction, they fight to keep you from seeing what they’re actually doing.  I’ll give a perfect example of this.  This last COVID relief bill they worked on months and months, Americans got $600.00 and other countries got hundreds of millions and even billions of dollars for gender/queer studies?  How ridiculous and how long has our government not really been working for the people…   A REALLY LONG TIME!!!

               Side note I think Stranger Things is FACT not FICTION… with the help of modern medicine you can see the demonic trying to break into our world if demons are harassing you enough…

               I don’t know… this world is very bizarre.  We’re living in strange times like the days of Noah… I’ve already told you demons want to sleep with you and break out into the world… and these mad scientists are genetically manipulating crap get non GMO food if you can… read MediSin it may clear up some of this nonsense as well.