Our Lives ARE NOT COINCIDENCE!!!

 

In 2009 I lost my mind. 

Or at least I lost the ability to communicate what was on my mind…

Well, there definitely was some delusional thinking mixed in I suppose… particularly when I was in the hospital it got bad, leading up to that I’m not sure what was delusion and what was me learning to walk in faith instead of fear…

Which, I completely lost momentum in that voyage quickly after my hospital stint. 

I digress. 

The year 2009… I determined would be a year of JOY.  That was it.  I’d lived with bitterness and resentment over my life’s circumstances for too long.  I was here, in Clemmons, for a reason.

I vividly remember that New Years Resolution, actually.  It came from a place of prayer and surrender.  Maybe all of my life I’ve fought God’s will more, or resisted it, than submitted, I’m not sure. 

Maybe that’s all of our struggle.

               I feel I must go back further than 2009 to bring you to that moment in my life.  And I’m not quite sure where to begin. 

               It seems there have been pivotal moments of development sprinkled all over my life, lessons learned and lessons that have had to been re-learned, circumstances less than ideal, and yet God…

               Maybe I need to write this just to renew my faith, because surely God has been faithful to me.

               So… I should go back to the very very beginning then.  Okay not the very very beginning where God created the heavens and the earth, you’ve gotta read the Bible and a lot of other books to get that picture. 

               More like, the beginning of God’s intervention in my life.  Which literally happened at conception. 

               It’s a miracle that I’m even alive.

               You see, I was adopted from birth… and my biological mom was a very troubled young woman who’d had two abortions before me, and certainly that might have been my fate if God hadn’t had other plans, of which I’m trying to figure out… but that I’m here, 38 years later, is by God’s grace for sure.

               I do not understand “pro-choice.” 

               It is certainly no choice of the baby to be sliced and diced to death in the womb. 

               It is definitely “pro-murder.”  We have to call it what it actually is if we want it to change.  Maybe we should even say “pro-Satanic sacrifice…” because that’s what it is too.  He is certainly the only one happy about the millions and millions of lives that have simply ceased to be. Who knows how many more incredible men and women there would be if abortion was illegal?  Of course the world would be a different place.

               My personal theory is, these millions of lives would have brought so much light and joy into the world that the devil cut their lives short on purpose through whatever means.  So we are missing out on a lot of light and joy! 

               And by gaullee the world needs more of that these days.

               Oh an yes I said men and women, two genders only, XX or XY, that’s it.  Genetic mutations are just that mutations not normative.  All this ridiculous thinking that there are many many genders, many many, well, its pure lunacy.

               But maybe the world has come to that these days, pure lunacy.

               After all, I go outside and see people wearing masks and thinking they will save them and save the world.

               What truly has happened to our brains? 

               And common sense? 

               I don’t know, apparently a steady dose of propaganda over time really does transform a society for the worse. 

               I’ve totally digressed again.  You may not care much about my politics, or worldview, but you’re going to get it and it’s not PC at all and who knows may be criminalized one day soon, but I’m determined to get my 2 cents worth out there. 

               So where was I?

               Oh yes, it’s a miracle that I was even born. 

               And it’s a miracle that God put me into my family!

               You see, God knew I needed to be a Lane.  He knew my parents wanted me, He knew He was adopting me and wanted me to grow into knowing His love, and so He gave me to Jim and Donna Lane!

               They actually wanted me!

               They had been trying to have kids of their own of course for three years, almost right after they got married in 1976, and when it wasn’t working and my mom went to the doctor to figure out why, they saw she was eaten up with ovarian cancer and immediate removed all reproductive organs she had.

               So,  Jim and Donna, or my mom and dad, didn’t care that I wasn’t biologically conceived by them, they simply wanted children to love. 

               They got my brother three years later.  Thankfully, he’s certainly been a blessing to me as well. (even though I still remember being aghast that he always stole away my hidden Halloween candy and such, I should have learned to eat my candy more quickly with him around!)

               And, I don’t know my biological grandparents of course, but they are the ones who intervened and persuaded my biological mom to have me and give me up for adoption, and insisted I be given to an intellectual Christian family!

               (My mom and dad laughed that they weren’t really intellectual haha, but I’ve learned more and more it’s the Christian that’s what’s important.)

               All of that to say is, I don’t believe in coincidences. 

               Luck could be argued for sure, but coincidence?  No, there’s definitely a Sovereign God working out His Will here.  He’s all around us, if you have eyes to see!  And once you do see, well, you see it everywhere! 

               Jesus called it the kingdom of God when He invaded the world 2000 years ago.  Well, maybe it wasn’t an invasion, He created everything after all.  He just became incarnate and flesh and blood and lived with us.  Amazing, what kind of God would do such a thing?  And why? 

               So yes, life is not mere chance, sorry all you secular atheists out there. I pray God will open Your eyes because He indeed has a purpose for you, too, if He would choose me, I’m sure He would You as well… I mean, I’m royally screwed up as I’m about to confess, if God would adopt me into His family, and did even knowing that even as His child I’d fall into sin and rebel time and time again, and He still calls me His Own… He wants you too.  For God is not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

               Oh dear, I’ve used trigger words like sin, and repentance.  Might as well get hell out there, too, it’s the elephant in the room I guess. All of these words and what they mean now disturb the world, but they are what the world needs most in this moment I’m sure.

               Well, and grace, we can’t forget grace.

               Here’s the thing, we all know we’re sinners.  We know it deep down that we suck.  That we miss the mark, that we screw things up, that we’re selfish when we need to be selfless, that we are self centered, that we think we ourselves are gods. 

               Even though there’s no one righteous, no not one!

               Wow, the devil’s propaganda that we’re basically good has done a number on us.  We think we’re good when we’re nothing but, and we think we know justice without God’s standard of justice, and we think the Gospel is Hate Speech to boot. 

               The Gospel, the GOOD NEWS, as it is, is simply GOOD NEWS.  Yes maybe it’s a slap in the face to be called a sinner, even when we deep down know we are one, and that because of our sin we deserve God’s wrath and hell, no one wants to believe we’d deserve such a thing, but the Good News is that Jesus died for us for that thing we call sin. 

               He literally was nailed to a cross and took God’s wrath upon Himself for us, so that if we could call out to Him for salvation, we could have it!  Why isn’t that the best news ever?  It certainly is!  God creates, creation rebels, God rescues and restores!  It sounds pretty wonderful to me, doesn’t it to you?

               Oh yes well, He does ask us to repent of our sins when we trust in Him. 

               Repent, turn around, stop doing all these rebellious sinful things against Him and others.  That’s the part most don’t like to hear. 

               It means you have to give up something.

               It means you have to give up everything.

               Even Jesus said the wise builder counts the cost of bricks before building a building, so the cost of following Christ is, your life.

               He wants us to be living sacrifices for Him!

               So, while, on the one hand salvation is free to us, we bring nothing to the table but our sin and Jesus did everything needed on the cross for our atonement, cheap grace is missing the mark.

               I know I know I know I’m preaching.  I can’t help it though.  The Gospel is Good News we all need very much, the world is insane and I’m trying to hang on to any hope there is left in the world.

               And thank God there is hope.  

               Why, you ask?

               Well… Jesus didn’t stay in the grave, silly!  He rose three days later, and then ascended into heaven to be with the Father, and now He’s reigning above all and about to come very very soon to stop the insanity going on in our world today. 

               Things are really really bad in our world right now, in case you haven’t noticed. 

               Besides having lost common sense and trading freedom for tyranny, there are mad scientists doing all kinds of genetic “no nos” on purpose, in the name of science, because we’ve unhooked science from morality so anything goes. Fantasies and sci-fi such as spiderman and wolverine and Captain America and zombies are all very much developed right now!  Scientists are manipulating the human genome to make us humanity 2.0. 

               The thing is, they have no way to get rid of our sin nature in this process. So humanity 2.0 with sinfulness sounds like a piss poor idea if I’ve ever heard of one.

               There’s only One who can and will completely restore His creation to perfection, and He will, soon, very soon I hope and pray, but maybe this book will bring you to know Him too, and if so I’m glad He’s let me write it at least to save one more soul.  Of course I take no credit, I may plant a seed but He’s the one responsible for making it grow.  Still, if He could use me, even in this small way, to touch one life, this blog is worth it, so I’m going to keep writing.