Changing my tune :)

 You know... bitterness is just toxic to your soul!


God has a reason for everything He does, for every season, for every person, for every place...


Sometimes what He does really hurts!  It's incredibly painful!

But... trust His reason.  He knows best.  He really is a good good Father.  


Please forgive me for having posted personal toxic emotional vomit.  


Forgive those who've hurt you! (Especially when you know they've done it out of grace!) 

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